"Take Away My Pain"

There was a time in my life where so many things seemed to go wrong. I could not go to school because I did not have the money. I lost a few things, and I felt like I couldn’t do much of anything worthwhile. One of the few good things in my life was a girl I was dating.

When we broke up, that was the last straw. I felt like I was abandoned by God. I was trying to do all I could to make my life good, but I felt like I had nothing. I hurt a lot, and got to the point where I was looking for any way to escape the pain. Running away, giving up entirely. Even a thought of suicide crossed my mind. But I knew not even that would be an escape from pain if I took my own life.

That night, I was physically shaking, because my mind was in such a torment of pain. I really didn’t know what to do, and for several hours I was like that: thinking of anything I could do to get out of what I had gotten into. After going through so much heart-breaking torture, my eye looked over at my wall where a picture of the Savior was hanging. As my mind was thinking of Christ, I came to a conclusion: There really is no other way. I cried out in my mind, “Jesus, take away my pain.” Not another 5 seconds passed, when my pain immediately disappeared. The anguish of pain my mind was causing me completely disappeared. Nothing replaced those feelings, but the pain was gone.

I lay there amazed at what had just taken place. I thanked God as I turned over to try and get sleep. After a few minutes, as I lay there, suddenly, what seemed to be a container burst over me, and enveloped me. The Spirit was not just in my heart, but I felt like I was wrapped in a cocoon of spirit and goodness. And all I could feel was love…God’s love for me.

I know God does not leave us alone.